Archive-name: 3plus/analyst5.txt

Archive-author: Hal

Archive-title: The Analyst - Chapter 5





Dr. Stevens listened intently as Jan described her first visit to

the club. "Did you join?", she asked. "Yes, I really liked most of

the people I met there, and somehow, I felt like I belonged." Dr.

Stevens moved to sit beside Jan on the couch and took her hand.

"Jan, I've been starting to feel that you may be moving too fast

into this second life and not exercising enough caution. When you

mentioned the cameras and video tape, I got a chill down my spine

because I've heard of people being blackmailed with something like

that. And, you really don't know that much about Dan. How can you

be so sure you won't get hurt?" Jan placed her other hand on top of

the doctor's and looked into her eyes.  "Have you ever had the

feeling that there is a part of you that has always been there, but

never come to the surface?" Dr. Stevens nodded and Jan continued,

"Well, I've had that feeling for a long time and when I got

involved with Dan, I began to realize what that hidden part was. I

am a very sexual creature. I'm finding that I love everything about

my body and the bodies of other people and I've never been as happy

or free as when I'm having sex. My parents were very strict and I

went to a catholic school, so when I went to college, and later in

the business world, I accepted that sex was for procreation and

should only be pleasurable with a husband. Unfortunately, most of

my experiences with men tended to reinforce that belief and I

always felt guilty when sex felt good. Besides, the men I made love

with seemed more interested in relieving an itch than making me

feel good. I think if I had had a more "normal" sex life when I was

younger, I might not have this tremendous need that has built up

inside me for a long time with no relief, but it's there and I have

to find a way to deal with it."



"The club made me afraid in the same way that Dan does, sometimes,

but I found that I liked the fear. It's partly a fear of being hurt

or discovered, but mostly, it's a fear of the unknown. I really

believe Dan has everything under control and won't let me get hurt.

I don't know why I feel that way, but I do and getting the video

tape seemed to make me believe it even more. When I first suspected

that they were taping me with Kevin, I made up my mind that I will

NOT be coerced or blackmailed.  They can show it on 'Sixty

Minutes', if they want, and I'll find a way to deal with it in my

real world. I really do believe it is the only copy, and I'm toying

with the idea of giving a copy to Dan and, maybe, Denise with the

understanding that it will be for their enjoyment only." Dr.

Stevens looked concerned and suggested that Jan not do that until

she had thought it through completely and they had discussed it

together. Jan agreed, and went on, "You know, I've watched that

tape at least a dozen times since I got back from that trip and I'm

just beginning to be able to relate to that incredibly sexy woman

on the screen being me. The first few times, it was like watching

someone else in a porno movie even though I could clearly remember

it happening."



Dr. Stevens was quiet for a few moments, then said, "Would you be

willing to let me see the tape?" She wasn't certain that her

curiosity was entirely professional in nature, but she found

herself wanting desperately to see what Jan had described and,

perhaps it would help her to provide better guidance to her

patient. Jan nodded and said, "I have it in my purse. Would it be

O.K. if I watch it with you?" The doctor took the cassette and

inserted it in the VCR that was built in to the bookshelves that

made up one entire wall of her office. She pressed the play button

and took a seat in a large, soft chair where she could see both the

TV screen and Jan, sitting on the couch. She wanted to take note of

Jan's reactions to what she was watching.



The tape began with Jan being helped to the stage by Kathy. ("My

God,", she thought, "she really is small. She almost looks like a

miniature woman beside Jan." As the video progressed, it became

obvious that the club had at least four different cameras to cover

the low platform from several different angles. From Jan's

description of the club and what she could see on the screen, they

were most likely remotely controlled for pan, tilt and zoom and

whoever was doing the controlling appeared to be an expert at

covering live action. All in all, the tape was very professionally

done. As Kevin was placing the head of his huge cock against Jan's

lips, Dr. Stevens shifted her eyes to watch her patient.  Jan's

eyes were glued to the screen and her hand was resting lightly in

her lap. Her legs were pressed tightly together and squeezing very

slightly. It was clear that Jan was aroused by what she was

watching and the doctor encouraged her to describe her feelings as

the tape progressed. Jan talked very openly about how Kevin had

felt and tasted in her mouth and later, the sensations she felt as

his giant member was entering her body. Despite all her efforts at

maintaining a professional aloofness, Dr. Stevens felt the sexual

stirings within her vagina and knew that her own fluids were

starting to flow as she listened to her patient and alternately

watched her patient and the highly charged action on the screen.



As Jan talked and watched, she stole quick glances at the doctor

and began to sense that she was also becoming very aroused. She

started making her descriptions and comments more vivid and new

that she was intentionally trying to turn Dr. Stevens on. She

wanted her therapist to understand exactly how she felt as she

performed sexually before all those strangers and she slid her hand

under the waistband of her skirt and into the bikini panties she

wore underneath. She knew that the doctor could see what she was

doing, even in the low light of the office, but didn't care. Yes,

she did care. She wanted to be watched as she masturbated.



Dr. Stevens knew that she should stop the tape and get both Jan and

herself back under control. Her patient was masturbating feverishly

in her office and, worse still, the doctor wanted desperately to do

the same thing. Dr. Stevens had only been in practice for five

years and had never had a situation like this arise before. She

had, of course, been warned many times during her training that it

was her responsibility to maintain control of the session at all

times, but what could it really hurt if Jan brought herself to

orgasm while watching herself on the screen? "If only I weren't so

damned turned on myself.." she thought.



When the video Kevin pulled out and moved up to position himself

over the waiting mouth of the video Jan, the live Jan cried out,

"Oh, Yes!  He's going to come in my mouth!", and her real mouth

opened wide in imitation of the one she was watching, as her

fingers dug deeply between her sopping lips and her thumb pressed

hard against her clit.  Jan's orgasm began for real just as Kevin's

did on the tape.



The semen falling like big, white raindrops onto Jan's beautiful

face and parted lips was more than the doctor could take. She

turned to see Jan's mouth wide open as if wanting to feel and taste

it yet again and Jan's hand was working feverishly under her skirt

as she reached her climax. Dr. Stevens needed an orgasm as badly as

she ever had in her life, but she also needed to keep that fact

hidden from her patient.  Somehow, she managed to keep her

composure and suggested that Jan might want to go to the ladie's

room in the outer office and "freshen up".  When Jan had left the

room, the doctor went to the small private bathroom beside her

office and locked the door. She quickly lowered her panty hose and

panties and sat on the chair at the make up table. She raised her

skirt to her waist and drove two fingers into herself. She was

coming almost immediately and her fluids were running down the

crack of her bottom to pool on the velvet below her. She fingered

her clit harder than she could ever remember and found herself

enjoying the slight pain she was causing from such rough handling

of her most sensitive spot.



When Dr. Stevens came back into the room, Jan was standing quietly,

looking out the window. The doctor walked up behind her and put her

arms around Jan's small waist. She leaned forward and placed a

light kiss on the back of Jan's neck, pushing the soft, shiny hair

aside with her face. "Jan,", she said quietly, "I'm going to refer

you to Dr. Kelly. I think you'll really like him." Jan didn't move.

The arms around her waist felt very good, and she had half expected

Dr. Stevens to drop her case after what had just happened. The

doctor continued, "I'm afraid I can't maintain my objectivity where

you're concerned and I think it would be better if you see another

therapist for awhile. Besides, the next time you go to Boston...

I'm going with you. If you and Dan will have me."



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