Archive-name: 3plus/analyst1.txt

Archive-author: Hal

Archive-title: The Analyst - Chapter 1





Jan had started seeing Doctor Stevens only after getting tremendous

pressure from her best friend, Donna. Jan insisted that she really

didn't have a problem that required the services of a psychiatrist,

but Donna insisted that she talk to Dr. Stevens, so she went. Jan

still believed that she didn't need to go, but had been learning so

much about herself and her life that she went each week.  Besides,

she really liked the Doctor, and could afford the visits, so why

not.



I should pause, here to tell you a little about Jan. She is Vice

President of Sales with a medium size electronics manufacturer in

the midwest. She is respected by everyone who deals with her as a

tough but fair executive who knows her business and manages people

very effectively. Her sales force calls her "The Iron Lady" but not

in her presence. It is obvious the first time you meet her that she

is a beautiful woman who could easily have become a top paid model

or actress but in her role as a business woman, she tones the

beauty down to "attractive" by her dress, demeanor and sparing use

of makeup. She wears very conservative business suits, doesn't

smoke and drinks only a little wine on social occasions. Jan is

thirty-six, but most people believe she is only in her late

twenties. Those who know her a little better are aware of the fact

that she has been divorced for about three years from a man who

tried for five to deal with her strong personality but finally

admitted defeat and went to live with a woman almost ten years his

junior and seems to be ecstatically happy, now. Jan has seen three

men off and on, since her divorce but is "too busy" to think about

a long term relationship. Her only close female friend is Donna,

whom she has known since college and whom she trusts with her

deepest, darkest secrets. In fact, Donna is one of the few people

in the world who know about Jan's "other life", the one that

prompted her to insist that Jan talk with Dr. Stevens.



Six months ago, Jan was on a business trip to Boston when she met a

man in the hotel bar and found her self talking with him for hours.

Dan was unlike anyone she had ever known. From the first, she was

fascinated by his quiet manner and soft speech and the

contradiction represented by the "fire" she saw in his eyes. He

made no attempt to pick her up or hit on her. In fact, she was the

one who kept the conversation going and she began to realize that

she would have to say "goodnight" to this fascinating man and might

never see him again. That prospect made her sad and she resolved

not to let it happen. When it was time for her to return to her

room, she initiated an exchange of phone numbers and said she hoped

they could get together on her next trip to Boston. He smiled as

they parted and kissed her very softly on the cheek (somehow, she

had hoped for more).



The next trip was only two weeks later. She told herself that it

was important that she follow up with the new potential customer

right away but deep inside she knew that the Northeast Regional

Sales Manager was the best in the company and could easily handle

things at this early stage of negotiations. She had never before

arranged a business trip for personal reasons and refused to admit

to herself that she was doing so now. Dan picked her up at her

hotel and they talked of nothing in particular as he drove her to a

small French restaurant. Over dinner, she found herself drifting

away from the conversation several times as she tried to gain an

understanding of what she was seeing and feeling in his eyes. Over

coffee, she told him that she really didn't want the lovely evening

to end (hoping he would take the hint). He said, "We could stop by

my place for a nightcap, if you like." She had to restrain herself

from blurting out "Oh, Yes!" and said, demurely, "I think that

might be very nice." Dan looked at her for several moments, then

took her hand gently into both of his. It was like an electric

shock and she only half heard him say, "But, there is something I

think you need to know..." When he knew that his words had reached

her brain, he continued, "I am a very strong willed man and I

require my lovers to place themselves completely under my control.

If you don't feel comfortable with that, perhaps it would be better

if we had our nightcap at the bar in your hotel."



Jan only partly understood the meaning of his words, but she knew,

without question, that she had to be alone with him and the sooner,

the better. Her mouth was dry as she nodded slightly and replied,

"I'd really prefer your place." They talked a little as they drove

to his house but Jan's mind was filled with questions. She really

didn't know Dan very well and had surprised herself by saying she

would go with him.  She had a strong sense that she could trust him

and needed desperately to be in his arms and feel his body pressing

against hers.



It was a fairly large, old house on a quiet residential street and

it was obviously well cared for. Even in the dark, she could see

that the lawn was well manicured and dotted with big, old oak

trees. He parked the car in the drive and came around to open her

door. He took her hand lightly as they walked up the front steps.

He unlocked the door and reached in to turn on the hall light

before allowing her to enter. When they were in, he closed and

relocked the door then, escorted her to a very modern looking great

room. It was clear that someone had remodeled the old house

extensively and the great room had probably once been a living room

and dining room. She turned and offered herself for the kiss that

she fully expected. He took her (so gently) into his arms and their

lips met. Almost immediately, their tongues were teasing each other

and she felt a great welling up of need and desire. Too soon, he

broke the kiss and stepped back slightly, holding her hands in his.



"As I told you," he began, "I will expect you to do exactly as I

ask.  If, at any time, you want to stop, you must say 'That's

enough'. When you say those words, our time together will be at an

end and I will take you back to your hotel. Do you understand?" She

was shaken by the stern tone of his voice and the seriousness of

his words, but she nodded. Jan was beginning to understand that she

was to be submissive to his wishes and she found herself both

frightened and excited by the situation.  "After all", she

reassured herself, "I can stop it any time I want." It never

occurred to her that she would soon lack any desire for her time

with Dan to end.



"First, I want you to remove your pantyhose and panties.", he

directed.  She started to protest, but he held up his hand. There

was no mistaking the meaning of his gesture and she found herself

standing before him taking off her shoes, followed by her

undergarments as he had instructed. She looked around for someplace

to put the items she had just taken off but there was nothing

within reach so she just dropped them at her side. "Now, kneel down

and open my pants.", he said quietly.  Her skirt was short enough

that when she knelt, she could feel the soft carpet against her

knees, and she reached forward to loosten his belt and unzip his

fly. She was moving as if in a dream, now, and lowered his pants

and briefs to the floor. His semi-hard cock hung between his legs

and she was impressed with its size and shape and wanted to touch

it but wasn't sure if she was supposed to wait for instructions, so

she did nothing. Dan kicked off his shoes, pulled his socks free

and pushed the pile of clothing aside with his foot. He removed the

rest of his clothes in silence as she knelt motionless before him.

When he was completely undressed, he said, "Show me how you suck

cock." The words stung her.  "Why does he have to be so direct?",

she wondered and looked up into his eyes. He smiled and said,

"Remember, you don't have to do anything you don't want to do."

Using both hands, she guided the head of his penis between her lips

and began to lick it with her tongue. She was so aroused that she

could feel her juices beginning to leak from her vagina and run

down the inside of her thighs.



This is essentially the story she told Dr. Stevens on her second

visit.  The first visit had been spent getting to know one another

a little and learning to feel comfortable in the doctor's office.

The second time, Dr. Stevens had said, almost immediately, "Tell me

about why you decided to see me." Jan really didn't know how to

begin so she just started talking about how she had met Dan and

ended up becoming his "slave" and how "out of character" it was for

her to behave this way but she didn't want to stop. Dr. Stevens

rested her chin on her fingers as she listened to Jan's story and

when Jan had paused, reflecting on the scene she was describing,

the doctor asked, "How did you feel when he was in your mouth?" "I

wanted to taste his sperm.", Jan blurted out, then said, "I'm.. I'm

sorry. I shouldn't have said that." The doctor leaned forward to

touch her hand and said, "Of course you should. If that's how you

felt. I need to know your feelings and I don't want you to hold

back because you think you may shock me."



After a short pause, Jan went on. "It was really weird. Dan is an

O.K.  looking guy but not the type I would usually be attracted to.

But, when he told me, straight out, that he wanted me to suck him,

it was as though there was nothing else in the world I wanted more

than to make him come in my mouth. It only took a few minutes

before he tensed and I felt the fist spurts hit the roof of my

mouth and I had to start swallowing. He told me not to swallow but

just let it run out my mouth so I did as he said and I could feel

it running down my chin and neck.  I've never really enjoyed the

taste and feel of sperm before, but I remember thinking how

beautiful it was at that moment."



"When it was over, Dan told me to get down on my hands and knees

and I felt him lift my skirt all the way up and lay it on my back.

I felt very strange with my ass exposed like that but I couldn't do

anything else.  Besides, I felt a thrill like I've never known

before and wanted him to do whatever he wanted to me. I think I

knew he was going to use my ass, but I pretended that I didn't know

what he intended and just waited, kneeling on the floor while he

went to a table and took something out of a drawer. In one way, I

dearly wanted to look to see what he was doing, but in a more

powerful way, I didn't want to know. So, I stayed with my eyes

focused on the carpet before me as he returned and started applying

some kind of lubricant between my cheeks. He came around in front

of me and held out a vibrator that was very narrow at the end, but

gradually widened a little. About half way along it's length, it

became much wider and stayed that width to its very large base. Dan

said, 'This will help you become ready for me and I think you'll

find it quite interesting on its own. Have you ever had a man in

your ass?' I looked up at him and said (quite truthfully) 'No.'

Then, he went behind me and I felt the tip of the vibrator nudge

against my anus. He turned it on very low and moved it around a

little before working just the end into my opening. As he held it

there, I was aware that my vagina was positively flowing and I

waited for more. He was so slow and gentle, that there was never

any pain as he moved the narrow end in and out in a kind of rhythm

and pushed more and more into me until he reached the place where

it bulged out wider. Dan put his hand on my back and said, 'This

may hurt just a little, but it won't last long.' I tensed at his

words and he said, 'No.  You must remain relaxed.' and he pushed

forward steadily as I felt myself stretching to accept the wider

part. There was a sharp pain as I opened farther than I would have

thought possible, but it started to disappear almost immediately as

I felt the whole vibrator sliding in to the depths of my bottom. He

turned up the speed and started fucking me with this devilish toy

as I grunted and groaned and found myself pushing back to meet each

thrust."



"Suddenly, he pulled it out. I gasped and I felt him place the head

of his cock against my slightly open anus. He pressed forward

steadily until his stomach was resting against my cheeks and his

legs were tight against mine. I could feel him all the way up

inside me and I started to come. I kept coming as he fucked my ass

as deeply as he could until he finally came and slowly withdrew."



Dr. Stevens was quiet for a while, then asked, "Jan, why do you

think you liked it?" "I think it's because I'm always in control at

work", Jan replied, "and I really don't have a very exciting life

outside the office. I know I was searching for something before I

met Dan, and now I feel like I've found it. The other thing is that

it seems so 'dirty'. I was raised in a very strict environment and

all through college and my career, I've worked hard at being very

serious and straight. I remember thinking, as Dan's sperm was

dripping down my chin, 'If my sales people could only see their

boss, now!' It was really very exciting to think about but, of

course, I could never let anyone know I did anything like that (let

alone, loved it). It's hard enough for a woman to be taken

seriously in the business world without having people think you're

some kind of nymphomaniac or pervert."



"Do you think you're a nymphomaniac or pervert?", Dr. Stevens

asked. Jan thought for a while, then replied, "I guess I don't

know. In a way, what I let Dan do to, and with, me seems perverted

but when I'm with him, I just feel so free. That sounds funny,

doesn't it? That I would feel so free when I'm being his slave? Dr.

Stevens was quiet for a few minutes, then said, softly, "Are you

going to keep seeing him?" Jan's response was immediate. "I don't

think I could stop. And, I don't think I want to. Do you think I

should?" "I won't tell you what to do", the doctor answered, "but I

am a little concerned for your safety.  Suppose Dan decides to go

too far and no one even knows you're with him?" Jan said, "I really

don't believe that will happen, but it's a good point. Would it be

all right if I leave a message on your answering machine when I'm

going to see him, so at least you'll know?" Dr. Stevens agreed, and

told Jan she wanted her to think through what she was doing and

why, so they could both understand it more fully. Jan said she

would.



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